Table of Contents

PROLOGUE

Once There Was a Boy
        by Selene Foster 7
Introduction 8

1. THE FINE ART OF
      PARENTING

Dreamscape 10
A Glint in Mama's Eye 13
Parental Intentions 15
Ignorance Is Bliss 16
The Birth of a Star 17
Making the Move 19
No Worries! 21
There Are No Accidents 22
Rich Memories of Marley
        by Llyn Peabody 24

2. MARLEY UP!

Speech! Speech! 26
Grade School Speech
        by Selene Foster 29
Cowboy Troubles 31
Unconditional Love 32
Passing the Test 33
Holiday Update 34
Pleasures and Pitfalls 38
Growing Pains 41
The Good, the Bad, and
        the Ugly 45

3. A CRASH COURSE
      IN MEDICINE

High Pressure Parenting 48
Fluid Facts 50
Receiving the News 51
Marley's Network Letter #1 56
Lung Cancer 101 62
Faith in Doctors 63
Updating Information 64
Preparation 66
Declaring Peace 68

4. FAITH IN FRIENDS

Friends in High Places 70
A Well-known Mystery 72
Boston Bound 74
Boston Globetrotters 76
Good Night Moon 80
Initiations 81
Paranoia 84
Pre-surgery Playtime 85
Your Wish Is Granted 87
Learning Curves 88
A Coordinated Effort
        by Joseph 89
Post-Op 91
Exploring Within 92
Travel Day 94
Return Home 95
Poetry in Motion 98

5. NETWORKING

Community Work 100
Past, Present, & Future 102
Head, Heart, Hands, & Health 106
Testing the Ropes 108
Joseph Juggles
        by Joseph 111
Learning with Legos 113
Life's a Circus 115
Just Say No! 118
Dancing Lessons
        by Selene 120
Ding! Round Two 121
Introducing "The Fenstemmers" 125
Hairless in Ashland 127
Space Syrup 128
The Middleman
        by Selene 130
Marley's Inspiration
        by Rebekah 132

6. THE MEDICAL
      KINGDOM

How Bad Is Bad? 134
Mind Mush 137
Macrobiotics vs Marley 139
Marley and Diet 141
The Boston Massacre 142
My Story
        by Eric Heikell 144
Operation Removal 146
Lungless in Boston 148
Healing 150
Life's a Blur 151
Under the Surface 154
News and Other Illusions
        by Selene 157

7. KNEEDS

Catch Up 160
The Moment of Truth 164
A Brave New Marley
        by Selene 168
The Effectiveness of Prayer 169
Giving Thanks 171
The Bright Side of Sad 173
Christmas Cheer 176
A New Year Begins 179
Who Cares?
        by Liz Stahlman 180
Day by Day 182
Clueless in America 186
Post Portland 187

8. CEREMONY

Creativity:
A Breakthrough Cure?
        by Selene 190
Portland Preparation 192
Manifest the Best 194
Bionic Boy 195
A Parent's Nightmare 199
Cause for Celebration 201
Marley's Meltdown
        by Gordon 202
Marley's Monster Bash
        by Jay 208
A Monster Success
        by Selene 210
Every Day Is Earth Day 212

9. LIFE'S A BEACH

Back in the Ring: Round 5 218
Paradise
        by Selene 219
Return from Maui 220
Make a Wish 225
Healing 229
The Birth of the Coyotes
        by Lucas Morgan 230
Summer Plans 232
Therapy Sucks 233
Playtime
        by Selene 236
Seeing Is Believing 238
The Oregon Country Fair 239

10. BETWEEN A ROCK
      & A HARD PLACE

Summer's End 244
Keeping It Together 249
Hip Hop 251
Radiating Personalities 254
Back to Normal 257
Marley's View on Cancer 259
Won't You Be My Neighbor?
        by Selene 261
Food Fight!
        by Jennifer S. 263
The Bedtime Ritual 265

11. LOSING PATIENTS

Living with Cancer 274
Society's Blindness 275
Misunderstandings 276
Alive and Kickin' 280
Talk About Dying 282
Sticking Our Necks Out 286
Frustration 288
I Did It My Way 291
Two New Tumors 292
Who's in Charge? 294
Decision Made! 297
Yet Another Tumor 298
Suicide Watch 299

12. HOPE

Radiation 304
Happy but Tired 307
Fighting Fire with Fire 310
Oregon Country Fair Revisited 313
Third Neck Tumor 317
A Dog Story
        by Janet Spencer 319
Reunions 321
The Marley Filter
        by Patty Foster 324
A Powerful Gift 325
Breathing Easy 329
Ouch! The Day Had Come
        by Catie Pratt 331
Changing the World 332
Grasping at Straws 334

13. GRAVE HUMOR
       & TIDAL WAVES

The Guestbook 338
Grave Humor 340
Knee Deep in Trouble 341
Keen New Knee Trick 343
Mobile Man 345
Conversations with Marley
        by Llyn 349
Just Say Yes! 351
A State of Grace 353
Wilderness Report 356
Eighteen and I Like It! 358
Life in the Fast Lane 366

14. THE LITTLE THINGS

Tumors–R–Us 372
Communication 376
Medical Inventions 377
An Invitation to Stay Alive 379
Still Alive! 380
In the News
        by Jennifer Strange 382
Brian's Mom 387
The Marley Effect
        by Martha Hammon 388
The Flip Side of Hope 389
Invisible Arms 394
When it Rains, It Pours 397

15. THE HOME STRETCH

Rites of Passage 400
The Party's Over 407
Roller Coaster Racing 409
The Last Wild Ride
        by Lucas Morgan 413
Wake Up Call 414
Preparing for the End 416
The Beginning of the End 420
Water World 422
Words Unsaid 426

16. NO PLACE LIKE HOME

The Final Switch 430
The Girls Grow Up 432
Uncle Jay's Alert 436
Decision Road 437
Visitors 439
Newman Reports
        by Jay 442
Grand Central 444
Brianna 446
Coyote's Call 447
Honoring the Fighter 448
Axey's Good-bye 449
Benny Boy 451
Reality Check 452
Selene Beanie 455
Home Alone 457
A Brief Hello and Good-bye 461
Sunday, Sunday, Sunday! 462
The Last Breath 466

17. MARLEY RIDES

A New Chapter 470
The Marley Man Rides 473
Down by the River 474
Day Two – Post Departure 479
Marley's Donation Update 452
Decorations 483
Day Three – Post Departure 485
Celebrating Loss 488
Reflections
        by Joseph 491
Day Four – Post Departure 492
Solo Time 494

18. THE FINE ART OF
      GRIEVING

My Angel
        by Vanessa Blount 496
The Fenstemmers, Part II 499
Lessons of Grief by Glen 501
Life with a Purpose 502
Memorial Invitation 503
The Memorial 504
In Retrospect 507
Remembering to Breathe 510
Coyotes:An Endangered Species?
        by Lucas Rex Morgan 511
Tracking Loss 514
Life Is But a Dream 516
New Year's Resolution 517
Gestation 519
Blast Off! 520
My Marley Miracle
        by Marvin Fenstemmer 522
The Fenstemmers, Part III 524

RESOURCES

Making Sense of
        Living & Dying 526
Grieving 526
Medical Stuff 527
Quotations 527